Why am I feeling this way..What is this pain? Where did my thought go? Have you felt this way? Does someone you know or love feel this way often? This is where it all began for me 5 years ago, a pinnacle in my life. As the symptoms progressively worsened I bombarded my primary care physician with questions that all but went unanswered. I felt like I was having an outer mind experience. Suffering in silence from some family and friends, I moved on in darkness ,confusion and growing physical pain.
Sometime passed, I was now on vacation with a childhood friend and her family. As we were walking the beach she listened intently to all my symptoms. Surprisingly she had been going through some very similar. The difference- she had just been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease. I was mind blown. She quickly suggested I see her rhumatologist on my return. My thought, they are all created equal…I made an appointment with a local doctor and pressed forward. As all these things were taking place I had just started the job most would call the stepping ladder to success. A fortune 500 global company with more work and respect than I knew what to do with.
The day arrived for the rhuemotology appointment. Anxious and nervous I followed through. This doctor had no interest in me, my symptoms, or a solution but eventually diagnosed me with a chronic illness. Our relationship was fruitless, it was time to call my friends doctor. There had to be another way, where was this going?
I’ve learned through this journey you have to knock down big buildings to get simple answers about chronic illness. That needs to change? If you are on this journey what are you experiencing? I can’t wait to continue the next time we meet up.
It’s ok not to be ok as long as you’re not
giving up. Karen Salmansohn
Butterfly Chronicles 
Wow! This of course is right up my alley. Keep up the good work!! Can’t wait for the next edition.
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Awesome job. Many will find comfort in knowing that they are not alone and that it’s not in their heads. As family and friends deep down feel about the illnesses.
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Thanks for your support!
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Thanks again for your inspiration.
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I really appreciate your vulnerability and your personal expressions, I can’t wait to hear more! I love you girl and of course always here for you!! Most importantly it goes without saying that Jehovah values those that trust in him. He has sustained you along this journey, you are a living testimony of that because at the end the day a lot of medical professionals are only out to collect that dollar bill! keep fighting, know that you have friends, family and most importantly your heavenly father behind you!
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I really appreciate your honesty and support. Thank you!
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I am so proud of you. I agree that it is okay to not be okay. We all need to listen and know that sometimes we hurt even when we aren’t showing it.
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Thank you so much!
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Good job. Glad you’re finally expressing what you’re going through. 💯💯💯👍👍👍
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Thank you!
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Very nice! Thanks for sharing! So many are unaware of autoimmune disease, yet so many sufferer with it! We smile, though we cry inside! Looking forward to your next segment! Hang in there, it’s not too much longer.
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Thank you so much for doing this. Dealing with this illness is just a tad easier to deal with when you know people that truly understand!!!
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I agree! Thank you!
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