Taking a bring these past couple of weeks has left a big void for me. I became a full-time care taker for my mother after she had a major surgery. How, one may ask? You push through just like any other day. Of course this took a grand toll on my body, but when someone as important as mom is depending on you, you make it work. Now that we are home from the hospital ALL the tiredness has set in to an inexplicable level. However, I rest when she rest. I recently had a good friend bring me some decorative duct tape. I may be using this in the near future to piece back this ship wreck called a body. One thing I have really missed is sharing my life events and experiences here. This serves as my gratitude/ reality journal. I hope you keep enjoying this journey as I share it with you.

I had to take a much needed mental break. In dealing with this new leg pain it has really been a test to my mental state. You begin to question yourself when you can’t find appropriate answers to your pain questions. This pain has lasted for weeks and I am still awaiting appointments and answers all the while questioning-should I just go back to the hospital? I’m mentally overwhelmed because a dear love on is facing a very major surgery soon, of I lose her my life when forever be changed. While I can’t focus on that, this pain makes itself the center of attention. The no sleep,peace, or comfortable walking robbing pain. When chronic pain warriors seek outside mental counseling, this is why. Dealing with constant pain is NOT normal. Your brain doesn’t respond well and neither do your emotions. Hold tight and find solace my friends your fight is not a lonely one, there’s an army there with you…..