Have you ever had to be jovial in circumstances when you didn’t feel like it? Or expect to have your lesser pain attitude when around others, even though your body is screaming? You are a normal chronic illness warrior. There are times when being jovial helps to temporarily take my mind off of the pain. Other times I want to disappear. Regardless, what we do every day is a balancing act, that when disturbed, throws everything off. So when people call us lazy, they have no idea.. It really only matters what you look in the mirror and see.